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She found life beyond this one (suicide)

 

One Day you just look up

For no apparent reason but one

Is God truly there?

Does he see how much I bleed?

How exhausted

And empty I have become

I heard about the girl who sent a prayer

And along with herself to the place we yearn

Was it too soon I wonder…

What about me I pondered

I am with a string holding like a ring

So many promises of hope and life

But does one truly die

If they were already dead?

I am screaming constantly at myself

How ugly of a thing you’ve become

How lonely and empty

Unwanted and disregarded

Why am I still here?

If all I am going to do,

every day of my miserable life

Is ask that same question…

She did not die, she found life beyond this one

If only I was not a coward

If only I had the strength

To decide to not be miserable anymore

I would live under the drowns of oceans

And hang above the highest of peaceful trees

Or peacefully watch in cold water as flowers bloom

From the cuts above my wrists.

 

 

 

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