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 I never truly found an inkling of liking to myself

I've always detested the person that I am

The heart that hides itself and its humiliating benevolence

This visage that calls upon uncalled for unwelcomed conversations

Everything that I am that I was I have always pushed afar...


I smiled and lied

The lies that I told

I believed and I was fine

I told myself -

The me that I stood gazing 

Glaring with such fire

Such hate and so much hope

That you are the most

Incredible distinguished creature

To ever walk upon the rays of life

That you are a King, born of a God

And raised by the most blessed 

Humans ever molded.


Afterwards it all fades,

The words and the hope 

The fire that was never truly lit

Stops rather entirely

I've loved myself once

When I was young and cheerful

When things weren't as complicated


When I didn't have to write this down

In order to feel good about being

Different...


I was a happy boy, once...

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