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A page in the suicide notes book

 What peace will I rest my weary soul in 

For when I am gone, I am no more 

Will there be a heaven bellow the earth 

Where my body truly rests

Will it help to know that my soul will ascend

Or should I just pretend...

For I have not been good

None of the songs of heaven speak of my name 

The life I lead spoke nothing of the songs they sing 

In a couple more years the bones will fade 

Will my soul be watching as everything it was 

Disappears into nothingness, and no one knows 

That such a man ever existed...

Many years from now when the echoes of this life

Fade... And the family tree that was is no more

Will we be in our soul form glaring at these years 

What if hell is to watch everything you ever built

Falls apart and everyone you ever knew forgets 

All about you... 

Is God that cruel, is hell fire, the divine punishment

The last judgement... Knowing that the life you tried 

So hard to live

Was all meaningless?


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