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Fading smiles

 It reminds you of a time you don't wish to forget- but you keep forgetting, and it hurts. You keep smiling, but every passing second it fades, slowly frowning, slowly saddening. You wished that, perhaps, when you're older, you'd be happy, like everyone else... But you realized that, none of the people you see are truly happy. Just like you, they wear masks, they hide, just like you. So you find yourself here again, laughing, with these strangers, sharing pain, sharing deep resentments of things none of you cares about, but you share something in common... The unhappiness of adulthood - After so many years, have I come this far just to be as miserable as I always was... Never changing, never finding comfort- Is this it?  I wonder how many times are you going to ask yourself that! Fading smiles... Poeticrae.

Branches

 I never truly found an inkling of liking to myself I've always detested the person that I am The heart that hides itself and its humiliating benevolence This visage that calls upon uncalled for unwelcomed conversations Everything that I am that I was I have always pushed afar... I smiled and lied The lies that I told I believed and I was fine I told myself - The me that I stood gazing  Glaring with such fire Such hate and so much hope That you are the most Incredible distinguished creature To ever walk upon the rays of life That you are a King, born of a God And raised by the most blessed  Humans ever molded. Afterwards it all fades, The words and the hope  The fire that was never truly lit Stops rather entirely I've loved myself once When I was young and cheerful When things weren't as complicated When I didn't have to write this down In order to feel good about being Different... I was a happy boy, once...