THE SAD THINGS IN LIFE

 So here's a day, as beautiful as this night I heard bangs as loud as gun fire piercing the door of my room After a while she finally kicked it to open  I smiled and blankly glared at nothing And faintly it faded into abundance... She saw me Laying there covered in blood... Lifeless as a corpse that had died days ago. I realized how valueless I was  The becoming of a thing so predictable So poorly judged and so discussing And so I've paved my own yard So I dug my own grave... And I took my own life.

 It never does, does it? I think 'till we're old and weary to wave our hearts Against stronger stranger tides We bind ourselves to a singular force To love and be loved by just one person Although it barely holds We hold on still... But as for us, the younglings It never truly works out, does it?

 I fell in love so many times And every single time I thought to be the last. I spoke to the moon and the moon whispered my name. My heart was healed by another. She raptured my heart a few moons after... I loved this girl I love her still I've caved into prayers and meditations Her loving warmth still lingers. If I could I'd forget about you for a day If I could, that would be the most peaceful of my days. I hoped to talk to you  But the feelings I hold you hold no more... And the longing I feel, you feel no more. I dont wish to die But I'll at least find myself a couch And hope to lie till my heart calms still.

I fell inside a dream It was the realest reality that ever existed. A reality that never was... I was in awe and yet distorted Was it a happy dream Or a nightmare. I fell in love in this empty world With the imperfections of my human self I saw the carvings of God. So I'll die as you've surmised Probably in the hands of my own It won't be an act of self disregard It'll be the sanctification of a lonely soul. So I'll die as you can clearly see How broken a soul can immensely be It's dark black and yet divine and kind It's loved and it is capable of love But the world has no place  For a heart so small, and yet so big... You've loved me, Because I was me... I love me Because it's just me.